OLA!

stop being nice....

Tuesday, October 21, 2008 |11:29 PM|

The moon somehow rises later now...

haha

Talking to pple, I honestly dont know what i was doing for the past 4 weeks!
rly rly zero studying (nt bragging...)
even though i told myself 6weeks to go --> will focus.
bah

but luckily,
I'm happy to say that i've really started. since saturday
haha
2 weeks....
still can la...
i tell myself

haha

and as i went to sch today,
i decided to walk to the bus stop
around the turn, i saw a RED bus. from a distance.
48 Is a red bus.
but so was many others gg along that same road.
66,170,etc...
i wondered...
should i run for the bus?
I didnt even know if it was MY bus!
if I ran for it,
and it wasn't 48,
damn. i would've wasted my energy
(and somemore, i didnt even know if i can run for it. like catch it even if it was my bus)
then again..
if i didnt run
and it Was 48, i'd reach the bus stop, thinking why didn't i run?
regret. probably

I actually wondered quite alot abt it, now that i come to think of it...

Would You have ran for the bus?

Well...
I did.
and to my delightttt,
it was 48! (woopie)

haha
but i realised...
if i didnt run for the bus,
and it was 48,
yeah. i'd have some feelings of regret i guess. that's natural for human beings right ._. haha

but if i did run and... it WAS 48
but i couldn't catch it and juz missed it by a BIIIIIIITttttttttttttttttt
(trust me, that has happened to me a LOT)
Well...,
At least i tried right.
my best.
Nothing i can do that the bus driver juz drove off even if he saw me running or smthn..
haha
and why shld i regret trying my best but failing?
~~'waste energy'?~~
haha

I guess...
somehow..
u juz have to give ur best shot bah. for everything. in life

Regretting really sucks.
especially
actually only. if u could've done smthn which would've given the outcome u wanted, and u didnt do it.
cause if u'd tried ur best, well,
u've given urself the best chance for that outcome huh.
there's nthn more u can do.. so...
even if the outcome sucks (a.k.a not in ur favour), u should....
celebrate the fact that u did ur best? and be proud of it? haha
guess that's where fate comes in.

some pple think their fate is 'sealed'
pre-determined. so whatever they do doesn't matter cause 'destiny's already planned out their life from birth to death for them.
therefore, they dont do anything.
but...
i dunno... what if ur fate is atually better?
there's gd stuff which can happen.
like....
u wont know for sure what u'd actually get, unless u try right. and try ur best that is. (so u can stand a chance of getting the best) (even though.. try ur best is nt equal get the best..)
haha
sooo..
when u had tried ur best,
and u still get crapp. (maybe... totall crap? haha)
Then, u can blame fate.
and maybe luck.
u did whatever u possibly could have done, and there's nthn more u can do abt it anws..
cause whatever's still in ur control, u still have a chance of changing it.
so why nt try ur chances. and give urself the best odds. instead of eliminating them and believing in the 'fate' of ur future being pre-determined.

I think fate shld be a past tense... kinda thing..
hahaha

sooo....
Therefore, we shld try our best for everything in life we still have control over!
(A lvls? for now. for j2s. loll)

yupp.
alrighttt....
enough philosophy...
(actually...)
what DO philosophers do? -.-
i mean..
now unis got degree in philosophy.
sooo.., a person with a degree in philosophy...
do what!? for a living o.o
(if u know the ans, plz tag --->)
hahaha

and.
sometimes, i honestly amaze myself how long-winded i can get
(think it's nt a very good thing.... ._." )
haha

hmmm

I juz wanna wish...
All J2s out there..,
JIAYOU!!
and Hang in thr!
grit ur teeth. clench ur fists.
do whatever it takes!
The end is near.................. (creepy music...)
lol
ok la. no need that bad..
Steady is the best
hahaha

k time to gooo

1 1/2 more wks...
give me strength

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